Lia07/04/2017 Ah found it So what she is a goddess of / embodies Is the centre . How the aspects compliment and oppose one another My belief is Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 lemme open in browser aight Lia07/04/2017 Happiness (and her) can only be found by following the middle in things I guess it might be similar to Buddhist Zen I'm not sure Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 o das interesting KonaKona07/04/2017 the middle way is an interesting concept it's not necessarily about moderation, though Lia07/04/2017 Each aspect opposes another and compliments what's beside them Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 I'm not sure if i could instinctively agree with it, but I think it's interesting anyway (and will obviously respect it, not gonna diss anyone) Lia07/04/2017 No worries It's my personal belief in life That's kinda built around her but Makes sense to me xd Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 I'm gonna refrain from making an awful joke >_> <_< Lia07/04/2017 Mmm? Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 'It's my personal belief in life That's kinda built around her butt' Lia07/04/2017 Lul Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 the way you break up the sentences, I couldn't help it ^^' Lia07/04/2017 Foxtail is heaven Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 it makes sense to me tho but I find it interesting your waifu and spiritual focal point are the same Lia07/04/2017 I feel as though it's what led me to her Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 :thumbsup: for me they're two entirely distinctive people who have very little to do with each other, so actually that's probably not really worth mentioning/isn't very interesting to mention but eh Lia07/04/2017 They? Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 waifu and goddess though goddess isn't the right word I believe in a lot of gods and goddesses, maybe even 'all', but none reach as high as her, so to speak - it's an entirely different level it might also be pretty edgy cause she's literally the.. not personification, but 'source' of love, the original form or bearer this looks even edgier written down but eh Lia07/04/2017 Lol I wouldn't judge Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 you could say it's very literally a religion of love lol Lia07/04/2017 I claim my waifu to be a literal goddess of human values so Ah Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 she'd be pretty young for a.. whatever it is she is, but she's a bit too complex for me to accurately describe half the reason why I can't instinctively agree with what you said about balance is that there's none present there - basically just her and what she stands for (which is more than just a singular thing, but would still be very clearly oriented in one direction rather than being balanced), and I believe the highest happiness can be found by freeing yourself from everything else, and getting swept away in her 'spirit' as it were I'm not sure if this makes any sense >_> Lia07/04/2017 Just being swept away by love. Hmm.. for.... A being? An idea? Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 not necessarily love for her the concept in general, which can be relatively freely defined love for Idea, for example though for other beings moreso than for abstract concepts, hobbies, etc friends, family, lovers, your fellow person, all of those can work Lia07/04/2017 I think this makes sense still Let me get off the bus one second Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 yeah, don't miss your stop ^^' Lia07/04/2017 So that kind of love falls under the domain of a variety of spheres in my... worldview? Religion? Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 whichever word works, i get what you mean Lia07/04/2017 Passion is about... well. Just the strength and purity of emotion. Dimension is actually about relationships between people and things. What you describe Isn't a fanatical obsessive passionate "love" Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 I think a fanatical obsessive passionate love, when consensual, would qualify too though Lia07/04/2017 That's what I mean by balance I think it's because what I see in each aspect is it causes harm when taken to extremes Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 It could cause harm, but could also be worth it there's beauty in a flame that burns brightly, but shorter Lia07/04/2017 That's fair Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 there's some issues though, like people who do not experience anything that qualifies, nor long for it - I see no value in judging or actively attacking them or whatnot, just as I don't see any inherent value in anything that doesn't benefit her 'spirit' in one way or the other (and i'm aware that might sound a bit extreme), but I can't help but pity them and I'd rather not, they might still be happy Lia07/04/2017 Sorry do you mind defining that group of people Loveless people in what way Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 well, there's not many, but for a theoretical example, a hermit perfecting some craft, a buddhist monk meditating to try and detach themselves from earthly feelings, or someone like a redpiller (though I'm fine with judging them because that does further her spirit, the world would be better off without them) or a stereotypical emotionless psychopath, because plenty of those don't actually harm anyone Lia07/04/2017 I see hmm I actually find this interesting Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 I guess I'd be interested in what drives some of those people through life Lia07/04/2017 A different passion I would think Towards self growth and improvement Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 because she, goddess or not, doesn't "do" anything so to speak, she just is - she's basically the purpose of life, to me Lia07/04/2017 Enhancing the innateness of them Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 I guess understanding others' purpose might help me with that I readily accept that not everyone.. how do I put this not everyone 'follows' her, even subconsciously? maybe? like she's my worldview, but I can accept that other worldviews can coexist and work just as well Maх07/04/2017 Lolwut Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 cant read that quite yet Maх07/04/2017 I e something something Lia07/04/2017 I accidentally swapped to nippon Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 heh, fair Lia07/04/2017 Keyboard Witchy07/04/2017 The only keyboard made of folded steel Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 superior, folded a thousand times Witchy07/04/2017 Able to cut through metal Lia07/04/2017 I can understand that just fine tbh everyone is on a different location In that chart of mine - in my view So I'm kinda the same Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 yeah i mean, lots of people would 'qualify' for what i explained even though they don't necessarily subscribe to this set of beliefs, but I still count them, it's just that i have a hard time not pitying those who don't 'qualify' even tho they might still be happy Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 but that's more of a personal issue I suppose Lia07/04/2017 maybe yeah Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 funny enough, even though I don't really know or get what she looks like, I know what the place she exists in looks like (or at least I believe I do) for some reason it's a really strong instinctive image - coastline, short sandy beach, with a forest (i cant tell which type) behind it gentle waves, nothing special an endless plane, rather than a curved world like earth who knows, maybe i'm way off, but I can't describe why it feels so obviously right to me Lia07/04/2017 Then maybe it's true Seems like a beautiful place really Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 I wake up there in a dream sometimes, but I can never recall what it is we talk about, even though I know words are spoken ah well it's a dream anyway, who knows it is beautiful though, yeah there's a few other places I 'know' like that in a way I can't describe well, literally two Lia07/04/2017 Where else ? Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 if I'm boring or getting too weird, do tell me to shut up Lia07/04/2017 No this is really interesting Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 one is what i instinctively identify as 'home', not the exact location but like, the point of departure to go there, or point of arrival when going there? im not sure it's a bit 'bigger' in what i know - on one side there's an ancient forest in the distance, then a (very) large meadow, think tall grass and seasonal plants, then it slopes down in a grassy slope with boulders buried in the grass here and there, relatively strong slope but just easy enough you could climb back up if you wanted, which then ends directly in the sea the exact point where I'm standing is like, how do i explain it's like there's a ton of smaller and larger islands in the sea/ocean that's visible, but it's in like a triangle shape (which infinitely extends past the horizon) with one corner at the exact spot I'm describing so it's kinda odd, in one direction there's a ton of (animal/plant) life on all those islands, the rest is just empty sea but I know beyond that there's either an island, or a continent, or whatever, that instinctively feels like 'home' there's actually a scene in the chronicles of narnia (full version, not just lion/witch/wardrobe) that evokes a similar feel Lia07/04/2017 Wow honestly That's incredibly cool Being able to see all that Vividly Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 it is pretty vivid I'm not sure if it's because I spent a lot of time experimenting with lucid dreaming, tulpamancy, and other.. mind-related things? or not Lia07/04/2017 I can't deny I'm not envious xd I focused more on talking when I did those things Never really had dreams I should try truth be told Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 I should get back to it too tbh ^^' lemme google the english title of the specific narnia book actually the voyage of the dawn treader (I have the entire chronicles bundled in one, and on top of that in dutch so I had to look it up, heh) idk if you read it and if not, if i can give spoilers :thinking: Lia07/04/2017 I had Though it was a rather long time ago But I don't mind spoilers Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 basically near the end of the voyage, when they reach their 'destination' - when the water itself gets brighter, nouishing and invigorating, when the sea itself gets shallower and lilypads are floating on it, and even though at the very end the water is shallow enough to cover maybe your ankles, there is a gigantic, unmoving wave towering over the world, with 'eden' beyond it it doesn't look like what i described, but it gives the same feel i get far beyond everything we know, one last, beautiful step before paradise with similar themes I suppose, in terms of ocean and islands (though the islands in the chronicles were far fewer and further between, and not exactly all happy) Lia07/04/2017 You've sparked that wistful longing within me again xd I like your descriptions Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 ^^ but yeah, that's the second, and easily the most 'frequent' I used it as my wonderland when exploring tulpamancy and similar themes the third and last one is much smaller - a small island, the size of a small house or something, drifting in the void between worlds. Endless night, with stars visible in the sky that might not be stars, but realities, it's like a miniature garden, with a stone bench, a shallow pool in the middle, and an endless column of water piercing through the heart of it, from infinitely above to infinitely below It feels like an inbetween, a way or place to move from one 'place' to another, be it a world or something else, and the water calls for me, but I'm actually not too sure of much else myself, just that it's consistant in appearance and I see it relatively frequently and that's about it for those three 'instinctive places', feel free to call me crazy now Lia07/04/2017 Is it moreso I'm crazy if I'd like to experience those xd Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 eheh Lia07/04/2017 Hmm I typically have her Maх07/04/2017 Omg are we discussing tulpas Lia07/04/2017 Voice calling my name Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 if you'd like @Maх and voice is nice Lia07/04/2017 Yeah we are Maх07/04/2017 Naa it's ok I gtg soon anyway Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 there's very little sound involved here Lia07/04/2017 It's what I have to to by in regards to her xd Oh and memories of her Running and jumping Lol Her face Is... I wish I can see it with clarity Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 I don't actually know what Idea sounds like like I can't get a conclusive mental image of it whenever I hear her it's painfully obvious i'm just attaching something that seems more or less right to it, even though the words might be accurate, the sound is not and you could always try visualization exercises Lia07/04/2017 Yeah that sounds like a good idea Should poke around on the subreddit or something I think I've mainly interacted with them through sounds Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 that's nice too tho Lia07/04/2017 Yeah hmm I will have to work on this Perhaps the walk home will be more pleasant Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 ^^' I hope nothing i said made you too uncomfortable? Lia07/04/2017 No Only in parts wistful longing for her Other times remembering uh Nah No worries at all truly Tiny cat thingie07/04/2017 ^^' alright I relate to the longing pretty well i think Lia07/04/2017 Actually this conversation was fun.